Monday, June 13, 2011


Last Sunday was a mixed ministry bag for me.  I have some moments I loved and some that left me scratching my head wondering if this is working at all.  I've been in this place before, but it doesn't make this mental/emotional/spiritual trip here any more palpable this go around. The consequence of all that was that I had a grip of things on my brain today.  So, while I did this random painting project for my kid's school, I spend some time pondering life and ministry.

In the process, I was reminded that the voice in my head is not the most accurate gauge of reality.   Sometimes I'm content with stuff that is not good.  Sometimes I'm in a funk about stuff that's really not that funky.  Sometimes I see clearly. Sometimes I see fuzzy.  There's enough variation inside me to confirm that I can't really trust the mirror to be an objective source of evaluation.  I can try and convince myself I see thing unbiased and neutral, but it's not true... especially when the subject is me.

So as I thought about it, I was reminded of a couple of verses:

(Proverbs 26:5)   "Do you see people who are wise in their own eyes?   There is more hope for fools than for them.”
 (Isaiah 5:21) “Destruction is certain for those who think they are wise and consider themselves to be clever.”
Reading those verses again today in this season of ministry was a great reminder for me of the need for multiple voices and the power of community to help me sort out my sense of God's direction.  It is clear that as I make changes and assess problems, there's a few others that I need to get involved and be the mirror for me.   A team of people are a much more accurate reflection than my own eyes staring back at me will ever be.  Here's my list of where I go for insight:

  • PRAYER:  I ask God for divine insight that only God can give. I ask God to speak to me about my issues and his plan.
  • STUDENTS:  I ask students for their feedback. I might grab someone who brought a visitor or a key student who I believe will give me honest feedback.  
  • VOLUNTEERS: I ask some volunteers in my ministry to tell me if my funk is their funk or if it's just a mirror thing. I ask them to confirm or disconfirm what I'm thinking seems right to them.
  • COACHES:  I go to a few hand selected friends and mentors. I tell them my situation, how I'm feeling, and the course of action I think I'm being called into and ask them to confirm it, caution it, or correct it.  
  • RESOURCES:  I might read a book on the issue I'm wrestling with or seek one out that someone recommends, but sometimes a neutral voice I can trust can be found easiest by going to someone not in my community at all.  



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