Today I was stewing on some of the pressures I feel pretty regularly as a pastor- in purely a random list I started typing....
- be funny
- be young at heart
- be athletic and physically fit
- be a great communicator
- be organized
- be on facebook
- be on myspace
- be a pop-culture wiz
- be aware of all things youtube
- be a travel agent
- be a graphic artist
- be a web designer
- be a great writer
- be photographic memory man with student's faces and names
- be a janitor
- be ultimately responsible for the ministry
- be caring
- be loving
- be available to those in need
- be trustworthy
- be a visionary
- be a corrector
- be devoted to prayer
- be memorizing scripture
- be reading my Bible
- be fasting
- be a videographer
- be a seminary student
- be a learner
- be a booking agent
- be great with money
- be creative
- be informed about politics
- be aware of the big news in the world
- be a blog updater
- be a listener
- be healthy
- be ready to eat pizza and junk food so I can hang out with students
- be on campus
- be relational and know the lives of my leaders
- be a small group leader
- be connected with my students
- be involved in our network
- be willing to say yes
- be willing to say no
- be a friend
- be a mentor
- be raising up lots of other mentors
- be a dad to the dadless
- be wise
- be a pastor
- be a forgiver
- be thinking about the future
- be reading lots and lots of current books
- be writing blog posts about what I'm reading
- be at every youth conference in the country
- be up on what the "emerging church" says
- be up on what Luther and Ignatius and Spurgeon and Calvin and....
- be up on what such and such a church is doing
- be watching survivor, american idol, and the office
- be aware of the latest and greatest on mtv
- be a surfer
- be mad skilled at all things xbox and such
- be a movie goer
- be texting my students
- be e-mailing
- be sending snail mail encouragement notes
- be thinking of others
- be a listener of podcast teaching
- be a member of a pastor team
- be a counselor for pastoral drop in needs in the office
- be caring for creation
- be playing some band on my ipod no one else has ever heard of but makes me cool
- be a family man
- be a manager
- be a leader
- be a pleaser of God
- be a pleaser of people
- be.......
Um... yeah. Obviously some of this is healthy and some not so much. Some comes naturally. Some I suck at quite naturally too. On a good day this list makes me give up and lean on Jesus and just be me and rest in God alone. On a bad day, it beats me up, makes me feel like a loser, and makes me want to quit under the weight of feeling like an utter failure.
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